My sister and I finished cleaning out mom’s condo on Thanksgiving weekend. We thought we had taken care of most things on the previous visit, but as any of you who have ever moved know, there was way more to deal with than we originally anticipated. At the end of the weekend, we arranged to… Continue reading An Eternity and a Blink
I went to see Beautiful: The Carole King musical last night. Jukebox musicals aren’t normally my cup of tea, and I didn’t enter the theater with very high expectations, but I’m so glad I went. Even though I spent the majority of the night choking back tears. Mom was a Carole King fan. I remember… Continue reading Beautiful
i do not recognize her, the round-cheeked, round-bellied zombie with the sad eyes who catches my gaze in rearview mirrors, medicine cabinets, and storefront windows these days. she is run ragged thick-jowled, furrow-browed, angry. she carries a grief backpack loaded with wet rocks, the extra weight causes poor posture and a misaligned hip. makes her… Continue reading untitled
Hey Mom- It’s triple digit weather in Fresno and I have no central air. If you were alive, I probably would have stayed at your place this weekend. I would have earned brownie points, driving you to breakfast at Jeb’s, maybe taking you antique shopping in Hanford. I would have helped you look for… Continue reading Arroyo Grande
Mom has been in a semi-comatose state ever since Wednesday evening. She’s at home, in bed, (mostly) peacefully resting. Mostly unconscious and unresponsive. Dying, in other words. It’s something we all knew was coming. Especially during this last month, when her decline suddenly surged from a slow and steady deterioration to noticeable changes with every visit. The last… Continue reading Waiting To Die.
“These sheets will never get washed,” I think to myself as I yank the patterned cotton layers from my mattress and toss them in the darkest corner of my closet. I doubt I’ll ever move forward with trading in the imprints of your scent and skin and smiling face for the clean cover up of detergent-… Continue reading Sheets