anxiety · depression · grief · mental health

treading water in the ocean above a shark in a monster storm with no land in sight

  Depression and anxiety are as much a part of my genes as blue eyes and big jowls and chin dimples. The cycle through mountains and valleys of temperament, the weight of panic that sometimes feels like a Giles Corey-style boulder to the chest, the bouts of tears and the seasons of numbness are all… Continue reading treading water in the ocean above a shark in a monster storm with no land in sight

cancer · family · grief · loss · love · mother · Mother's Day · Uncategorized

Motherless Days

Dear Mama White, You’ve been gone a little over three months now. Everyone told me things would get easier. Maybe that is something that will come later on. For now, it feels as though every day gets harder still. I remain so, so, so tired. Relief has yet to show up in any capacity at all. I am physically… Continue reading Motherless Days

cancer · family · grief · loss · love · parents

Waiting To Die.

Mom has been in a semi-comatose state ever since Wednesday evening. She’s at home, in bed, (mostly) peacefully resting. Mostly unconscious and unresponsive. Dying, in other words. It’s something we all knew was coming. Especially during this last month, when her decline suddenly surged from a slow and steady deterioration to noticeable changes with every visit. The last… Continue reading Waiting To Die.